calvin!

calvin!
missin you so much!!!! you'll never be forgotten by me!!! i love you always and forever!!!! :(

Sunday 30 August 2009

broken glass and alomost car wreck!!

friday morning my mom was driving home from work! she works grave yards. she was on the high way and was by this big semi and she was really close to the tire. and i guess the semi fliped some huge rock at my mom and it the side window in the back on the left side. the glass shaddered every wear!! my mom was freakin out cuz she had no idea what the loud noise was. she was shackin and alomost got into a car crash because she was headed to the other side of the rode cuz the noise scared her half to death! but luckly there was no car on the other side of the rode or she probably would have got into a car crash. she corrected her self and got back into her right lane and looked back and saw it was the glass that made the huge loud noise! you cant really tell but there is no window here!! and the pic above is the glass every wear!!! its all inside the car i mean its every where!!! on the floor its so bad! where so lucky that my brothers wheren't in the car when this happin cuz they would have been covered in glass and that would have just been so sad!! but im glad my mom didnt get in a wreck! but she was just so scared she couldnt even talk. she was shacken so bad and crying and was breathing really heavy!! she said she hasnt been so scared in her life!!!

Saturday 29 August 2009

school!

school has finally started!!! OH NO!!! scarey!!! school started like a week ago. and i already hate it! i want it to still be summer!! to much homework going on!! i had 20 assighments this week that had to be due by this friday! it was so dumb! but i made it through... thank goodness. thought i would fail. but i didnt i got them turned in!! haha but its so much diffrent this year! and idk how it is... but im takin semenary and thats such a fun class!!!! well so far im hating school right now. haha but the only good thing about it starting is so that my birthday will come faster!! cuz i want to be 15 already!! i do i do!! i want to drive already!! yes i do i do!! i see all my old friends agian. thats a good thing!!! haha well i just cant belive school is here??? wow!!!! lets hope i can keep my grades up!!!!! :) :)

Monday 17 August 2009

summer has gone bye bye!

wow! school starts in like a day!! where has the days gone???? its gone by so fast no joke! im so not ready for school to start! i hope this year will be tonz better then last year... today i went to the school to check out my classes and stuff. and all my teachers seem real nice!! i just hope i can get good grades!!! cuz i get confused in some classes. haha but i did that today and then after i went to calvins house to go sign his year books!!! that was so much fun!! i got to visit with his family!!! i was so glad i got to do that today!! his little brother is so cute!! he is just way funny!!! he totally is just like calvin! its so cool of how much they look alike! his little brother reminds me so much of him and the way he talks to!! and his other little brother who is now going into junior high he is so funny to!! he sounds real excited to be in junior high this year!! ill be so excited to see him around in school this year!! i cant wait!! i want to go back there and visit them again!! there so nice!! speacily his mom!! i just love his mom!! calvins mom is like the best! she is so nice!! i love looking at calvins pictures that she has on the walls and stuff. there house is really nice!!! calvin is so lucky to have such good parents like them!!! im sure he misses them dearly!! but also protecting them!! i loved hearing stories about him that his mom tells us!! there so funny! all i can say is that calvin was such a sweet caring kid!!! and i guess he loves making up storis!! he is such a funny kid!!!! i just cant wait to see him again!!! it will be a blast! but i hope i get to go back to calvins house here soon.. haha i love talking to his family! there the best!!!

Tuesday 11 August 2009

grandpa!

my grandpa is 89 years old and its about his time to go... they live in colorado and my dad went up there to get corn and stuff from them and they met in grand junction and my grandpa had to use the restroom and so they figured he had alot of stuff to hold on to in the bathroon sence he cant walk that good and my dad didnt even think to go in there and help him or any thing so it was takin him a while in there so my grandma said hey will you go check on him so my dad went in there and saw him layin on the floor in the bathroom and he went to help him up and found him in a pile of blood!! and so my dad called in my grandma so they could help him sit up and they had to call the ambulance cuz he couldnt get up and tore his lip up!! and hit his head real hard... so they got him to the hospital and he had 40 stiches in his lip and hurt his shoulder and has a goose egg on his head. so he got to go home for a while. then sunday night he all a sudden got a concushion and had blood in his brain and he got to the point where he couldnt even talk any more or even walk. so they had to call the ambulance and rush him to the hospital and they told my grandma that they need to do a life flight over to the grand junction hospita cuz he needs to have an emergency sergury on his head well now he is over there and i guess they ended up not doing sergury cuz there just going to try to see if they can get it to stop bleeding.. but they said he might not make it... so my dad is up there staying!!! and my whole family is here. home. when i want to be up there. but i cant... but i want to cuz ill never ever see him again not even when i die... cuz he deosnt belive in god at all!!!! and my whole family has tried to get them in church but nothing has changed him.. and i wont see him any more... its like the end of him.. like im not going to see him any more!! and he has been the best grandpa ever!!! and i just dont know what to do... and i just want him to stay alive i dont want him to go yet!!!!!!! and my grandma thinks that this is the end that she wont ever see him again eaither... and so of course when he dies she will end up killing herself cuz thats what she said she will do... and iv never felt this way in my life... iv never felt so much pain in me... cuz i love them very very very much!!! and this is really going to be the end!!!! forever!!!!!! he just cant die yet... i need him still... and i just want to be able to get him in church and talk to him and tell him god is real!! and that he should belive in him!!! i just need 2 or 3 or 4 more years of him living!! my whole family has prayed alot for him.. and still nothing has changed... it just keeps gettin worse... and i dont know what to do..... cuz all im ever giong to have is his memories... thats it... and i wont even see him any more... this is the hardest thing im ever going through.... and once he dies my dad will be sad forever cuz he is going to blame him self for him dieing cuz he didnt go in there to help him go to the bathroom.... really what do i do????????? i just feel heart broken..... grandpa!!!! im going to miss you so so much!!! it wont be funny of how much i wil miss you!!!!!!!!!!! just please always remember that i love you with my whole heart!!!!!! and that pic up there i will always remember that smile of yours and how you always made me laugh!!! thank you so much for coming to my dance compitions and thank you so much for making all the trips for are whole family to go to!! iv had so much fun with you!!!!! and nothing will ever be the same it wont!!!!!!! im going to miss talkin to you on the phone every sunday... and im going to miss going to your house!! im going to miss every thing!!!!!!!!!!!! grandpa i cant belive this will be the end!!!!!!!! i love you with my whole heart!!! please rememeber that and make good choices!!!! cuz im never going to forget you!!!!! i love you with my whole life!!! goodbye grandpa.... forever... i hope you make better choices when your up there.... goodbye....... my favorite grandpa!!!!!!!