crashing... for the very first time!!!!!

well.. today i went to ride my motor scooter. and i kept thinking to myself cuz i kept hitting rocks and i was like that would be so scary if i just like crashed and hit my head and had a head concushion... but then i was oh.. i better be careful. cuz i dont have a helmet yet. and so i was slowin it down for when i would hit a rock.. well... my brother crashed on his bike and he was screaming bloody murder so i hurried and rode over there to see if he was ok.. well.. when i got to where he was i axedently slambed on my breaks to hard and i was leaning back and i flipped forward and i went staright to the ground my knee hit it first and i swear my knee cap moved clear up there cuz it hurts so bad and i cant even walk that good... and my hand was all scrapped up and i hit my head pretty hard on the rode.. it kills so bad!!! i just layed there on the rode to make sure i wasnt dead. cuz it happin so fast. i was like so scared.. and i just kept laying there and my neighbors came over and they kept asking me all these questions to make sure i was ok. but i just layed there in shock and i didnt even speak... and so they told my brother to get my parents so my dad came rushing out and was like amber amber are you okay? and i just wouldnt speak.. and i sat there for a while thinking of what just happen then finally after a while as my dad picked me up i finally started to talk a little bit and my dad took me to lay me on the grass and he looked at my knee and i scraped it up pretty bad.. same with my hands. and i just got a pretty bad head ache and a bump but no scartch thank goodness... but it kills so bad.. that was so very very very scary.. im still shakin from what just happin.... and my knee pretty much kills like no other... but my very first time crashing on my scooter.... how freakin scary!!!!!!!

easter.....

well... i found out im not going to be here for easter... :( i dont want to leave i like staying with my family here in spanish fork.. no where else.. i have to go to colorodo to go see my great grandparents and i dont want to .... becasue my great grandma is like 60 or 70 and she isnt really my great grandma she is my step... grandma. and she is so mean to me.. she calls me fat all the time and she yells at me and i dont do nothing to her..and she also calls my mom fat to... she is just rude.. and she doesnt like me she even told my dad that... she thinks im ugly and stuff...and she makes my dad come up and see her.. and she told my dad that where going up this easter and she doesnt care what we have planned she wants us there.. so now i have to leave and go be with the meanest grandma ever!! i dont want to go.. she always makes me feel bad... and i just always have a horrible time down there. ..its never fun!! i mean i love seeing my great grandpa!! cuz he is so nice!! i love him.. but what stops me from going is my grandma.... if she wasnt mean to me and didnt make me feel bad and i actuaully felt like part of her family then i would want to go all the time... but she doesnt so.. ya.. but the onely thing that makes me go is just to see my grandpa. thats it!! if it was just my grandma i would beg and beg my dad to go let me stay with my other grandma or friends... cuz she always makes me cry every time!!! i hate it... sometims i just wish she would love me.. but she doesnt not one bit... it sucks.. and now i have to go spend easter with her... i was mad when i found out cuz i want to be with the family that loves me not with my step grandma that makes me feel miserable....