calvin! :)

calvin :) my buddy! i cant belive its been a whole year!! wow where did the days go... ??? i figured i would write this on wensday cuz i think i would be to sad to write this tomorrow... and i dont want to cry.. cuz i need to be strong and just think of all the happy memories i have had with you! but i have missed you so much! its crazy! there are times i think that would if i forget you? but then i say but i wont! cuz i wont let it happin!! but idk im just scared... and there has been times i need to talk to you so bad! cuz your the only person i think of who could make me laugh and turn my frowny face up to a smiley face! :) i loved that about you! but when i needed someone to talk to you wheren't there... and so i just cryed hopeing you where by me... cuz i just wanted to hear your voice and i just needed you to help me out.. cuz my friends wheren't really helping.. all they would say is "im sorry" and that doesnt really help any more... and i know you would make me laugh and tell me its going to be alright!!! but thats the thing i miss is calling you or texting you and asking for your help cuz you have good advice! and i love that about you!! :) but nothing will be the same now... i just wish i could have seen you one last time before you left! and got to tell you bye... :( but i love your smile calvin! thats one i always remember in the hall way when im walking i can just pic you pasting me with your smile!! haha when i still walk in the halls at school i keep thinking this person is you cuz he looks alot like you until he turns around and i see his face then he is totally diffrent looking. haha but i miss you! and i pray for his family and frineds that we'll all have the spirit with us on this day.. and that we can just smile and think of all the happy memories! cuz where going to need it! calvin i remember the time when i very first met you in person.. haha at the libarly for the kids parade. we hung out that whole day pretty much. i was so excited to met you and everything. and steven came along! that was so fun! except you and steven kept ditching us.. haha jk but we where takin pictures of you guys and you kept lookin away! but i loved hanging out with you guys.. it was so much fun!! and we kept going inside the libary and you guys where on the computers.. haha fun times! i miss those days!!! and the street dance! that was fun to! you and steven where doing the hokey pokey dance!! o my you made me laugh so hard! though's where the funnest days! wow im going to miss it! but your in a better place now! and calvin i love you so much! i miss everything about you! and ill be thinkin about you the hole day tomorrow and im going to come visit you to! but i miss you so so much and you'll never be forgotten by me... cant belive its been a year!! i miss you buddy!!! :(