easter.....

well... i found out im not going to be here for easter... :( i dont want to leave i like staying with my family here in spanish fork.. no where else.. i have to go to colorodo to go see my great grandparents and i dont want to .... becasue my great grandma is like 60 or 70 and she isnt really my great grandma she is my step... grandma. and she is so mean to me.. she calls me fat all the time and she yells at me and i dont do nothing to her..and she also calls my mom fat to... she is just rude.. and she doesnt like me she even told my dad that... she thinks im ugly and stuff...and she makes my dad come up and see her.. and she told my dad that where going up this easter and she doesnt care what we have planned she wants us there.. so now i have to leave and go be with the meanest grandma ever!! i dont want to go.. she always makes me feel bad... and i just always have a horrible time down there. ..its never fun!! i mean i love seeing my great grandpa!! cuz he is so nice!! i love him.. but what stops me from going is my grandma.... if she wasnt mean to me and didnt make me feel bad and i actuaully felt like part of her family then i would want to go all the time... but she doesnt so.. ya.. but the onely thing that makes me go is just to see my grandpa. thats it!! if it was just my grandma i would beg and beg my dad to go let me stay with my other grandma or friends... cuz she always makes me cry every time!!! i hate it... sometims i just wish she would love me.. but she doesnt not one bit... it sucks.. and now i have to go spend easter with her... i was mad when i found out cuz i want to be with the family that loves me not with my step grandma that makes me feel miserable....