sick for two weeks!!

well this all started on thanksgiving break. on the weekend of thanksgiving break i went up to colorado to see my great grandparents. when we got there we were sitting on my grandmas table and my whole family has been sick like my dad had walking pneimonia and my mom had sinece infections.. and stuff and my grandma looked at me and she said, "amber im suprised you havent gotten this stuff and havent been sick.." and i was like i know its crazy.. cuz im usally the one getten sick the most. then that night when i was sittin at her house i wasnt feelin to good.. and i was like great im probably gettin sick. then we went back to the hotel room and i just felt like i was going to throw up and i was so cold and i felt like i had a fever. then the next morining i woke up with like a croopy caugh and a sore throat. and so i couldnt give my grandparaents hug goodbye cuz i was sick and i didnt want to give them anything. so we got home and i still felt really sick.. but the next morning i woke up and i still felt sick but i knew i had to go to school cuz i didnt want to miss anything. so i went and about 3rd period i felt really sick and had a fever and i told my freind kadee i said im sick.. and i asked her to feel my head to see if i had a fever and she felt it and she was like amber your really hot you need to go call home! you have a fever! and i was like no i cant i have to stay and get my work done.. i cant go home! and she was like you need to you have like a high fever.. and i was just like great! so after 3rd period i went to the office and called my mom and i went home. she called the doctors and i so i went to the doctors and all he told me was i have a vuris.. if im not better by thursday i need to go back in!! so that whole week i was dieing of fevers and head aches and body aches.. and chills and everything.. my fevers wouldnt break nothing would. so it was thursday still had fevers and everything.. my mom was like should i call the doctors or maybe just wait one more day.. and i was like i dont care. so we ended up waiting another day and my chest was hurting really bad and still had a terrilbe caugh and my mom was like k your not gettin better and it was friday so my mom called the doctors and we got an appointment at 6 so we went in and i saw a diffrent doctor and he was like oh your lungs dont sound great at all and i couldnt even breath in and out with out caughing and it hurt so bad. so he made me go down and get a chest x-ray cuz my mom told my doctor that my dad had walking pnemonia so i went down there and got an x-ray and brought it back up to the doctor and he took it and looked at it and he goes.. Oh NO! this isnt walking pnemonia this is actaul pnemonia.. and i was like what????? and i was like freaking out! and the doctor showed my mom and told her i have fluied in my lungs and stuff but he said the only reason he isnt going to put me in the hospital is cuz i dont have fluied in like the bottom and thats what is mostly high risk.. so they just gave me antiboicts and stuff and he said if she isnt better by monday and you think she is gettin worse you need to take her to the hosptial.. so over the weekend i still felt like really bad i coudnt breath it hurt so bad.. and finally monday came.. and i still felt the same as friday.. well i went down stairs and i fell asleep and my dad came home and he came down and woke me up and i wouldnt wake up and he was like amber!! amber! and he was gettin nervouse! so he was like are you unconsaous...? and i kinda just like sat there and i was like no.. and he was like whats wrong? and i was like i cant breath... and he was like k go get ready were takin you to the emergency room! and as soon as i heard that i freaked! and i was like no i dont want to go.. i dont want to! and he was like you have to i dont want you to die.. cuz i dont want you to sit here and get worse and slowly die.. no you need help amber! and i was like crying! cuz i didnt feel good and i didnt want to go to the hospital! so he went outside and hurried and shoveld the drive way and i was gettin ready then my mom wanted to wait tell the doctor called back but then i felt like i was going to pass out! so my dad was like lets just go she is going to past out she cant breath were going.. so we took my brothers to my grandmas and we went to the hospital.. we got there and they ask me all these questions and everything then they took me to a room and i went to get a chest x-ray and then i came back and the nurse came in and gave me a breathing treatment! then they looked at my x-ray and they said well you dont have alot of fluied in your lungs you still have pnemonia but i dont think we will need to have you stay over night.. so everything was fine.. but they gave me an inhailer and more antiboctics.. and so i went home and i was war out!! and everything! so i fell alseep and that was just a crazy night! everyone was freaking out they didnt want me to die.. and it was a mess! but i still have pnemonia just not as bad.. and iv missed two weeks of school! its crazy! i hate being sick! iv never been so sick in my life! so i had swine and pnemonia! i think im done being sick wow! some days i felt like i was giong to die.. and yeah. it is so crazy! but i think im finally gettin better i hope! but what a crazy two and half weeks!!

brother does not know how to spell!!

well my brother was doin his homework. and he had to do this thing where he had to write 20 experinces he has had. well like on the 15th one he was writing out riding sheep well when my mom walked over there to check it she just bursted out laughing.. and were all like whats so funny?? and she wouldnt stop laughing. she was laughing so hard she was crying and she was going blue.. haha and then she finally stoped and she said look at the paper. so i looked at it and it turns out my brother wrote riding shi! haha he is only in 1st grade and he was trying to sound it out and he kinda mixed it up and spelt a bad word.. but then i started laughing. that was so funny! so my mom had to erase it and tell him how to spell it the correct way. my brother got all embarssed.. cuz he didnt even know he spelt a bad word.. haha what a goof ball!! :) but he is learning but it was still way funny!!

my song!! :)

this song is my favorite song ever!! it what makes me think about stuff and i just thought i would share with you guys my favorite song! :) its called Lessons learned by carrie underwood!


theres somethings that i regret
some words i wish i had gone unsaid
some starts that had some better endings

been some bad times iv been through
damage that i cannot undo
somethings i wish i could do all all over again
but it dont really matter

but life gets that much harder
it makes you that much stronger
oh, some pages turned,
some bridges burned,
but there were,
lessons learned!

and every tear that had to fall from my eyes
every day i woundered how id get through the night,
every change, life has throwen me

im thankful for every break in my heart
im greatful for every scar
some pages turned
some bridges burned
but there were lessons learned

there's mistakes that i have made
some chances that i just have threw away
some roads
i never should've taken

been some signs i didnt see
hearts that i hurt needlessly
some wounds
that i wish i could have one more chance to mend

but it dont make no diffrence
the past cant be rewritten
you get the life your given

oh, some pages turned
some bridges burned
but there were leassons learned!

and every tear that had to fall from my eyes
every day i woundered how id get through the night
every change, life has thrown me

im thankful for every break in my heart
im greatful for every scar
some pages turned
some bridges burned
but there were leassons learned!

and all the things that break you
are all the things that make you strong
you cant change the past
cause its gone

and you just gotta move on
because its all
lessons learned

and every tear that had to fall from my eyes
everyday i woundered how id get through the night
every change, life has thrown me

im thankful for everybreak in my heart
im greatful for every scar
some pages turned
some bridges burned
but there were lessons learned

oh, some pages turned
some bridges burned
but there were lessons learned
lessons learned!


i love this song!! it is deffently my favorite!! :)

calvin! :)

calvin :) my buddy! i cant belive its been a whole year!! wow where did the days go... ??? i figured i would write this on wensday cuz i think i would be to sad to write this tomorrow... and i dont want to cry.. cuz i need to be strong and just think of all the happy memories i have had with you! but i have missed you so much! its crazy! there are times i think that would if i forget you? but then i say but i wont! cuz i wont let it happin!! but idk im just scared... and there has been times i need to talk to you so bad! cuz your the only person i think of who could make me laugh and turn my frowny face up to a smiley face! :) i loved that about you! but when i needed someone to talk to you wheren't there... and so i just cryed hopeing you where by me... cuz i just wanted to hear your voice and i just needed you to help me out.. cuz my friends wheren't really helping.. all they would say is "im sorry" and that doesnt really help any more... and i know you would make me laugh and tell me its going to be alright!!! but thats the thing i miss is calling you or texting you and asking for your help cuz you have good advice! and i love that about you!! :) but nothing will be the same now... i just wish i could have seen you one last time before you left! and got to tell you bye... :( but i love your smile calvin! thats one i always remember in the hall way when im walking i can just pic you pasting me with your smile!! haha when i still walk in the halls at school i keep thinking this person is you cuz he looks alot like you until he turns around and i see his face then he is totally diffrent looking. haha but i miss you! and i pray for his family and frineds that we'll all have the spirit with us on this day.. and that we can just smile and think of all the happy memories! cuz where going to need it! calvin i remember the time when i very first met you in person.. haha at the libarly for the kids parade. we hung out that whole day pretty much. i was so excited to met you and everything. and steven came along! that was so fun! except you and steven kept ditching us.. haha jk but we where takin pictures of you guys and you kept lookin away! but i loved hanging out with you guys.. it was so much fun!! and we kept going inside the libary and you guys where on the computers.. haha fun times! i miss those days!!! and the street dance! that was fun to! you and steven where doing the hokey pokey dance!! o my you made me laugh so hard! though's where the funnest days! wow im going to miss it! but your in a better place now! and calvin i love you so much! i miss everything about you! and ill be thinkin about you the hole day tomorrow and im going to come visit you to! but i miss you so so much and you'll never be forgotten by me... cant belive its been a year!! i miss you buddy!!! :(

All the memories and birthday comin up!

wow!! i just cant even belive its almost been a year sence calvin died... if feels like i just saw calvin yesterday with his big smile!! it really does... i just am still in shock he is gone.. there is no way i would have imagined him pasting away.. wouldnt have had a clue... i didnt think i would ever go through this stuff!! but apperntly i did.. and i just cant belive i have made it this far... but after a year.. and thinking about it.. and getting my head straighten out!! i think i finally relized why he died.. cuz god didnt take him from us just to make us misserble... it was cuz he needed him.. and as i think back... when he was alive i wasnt the greatest person.. i made mistakes.. but when he past away its like i became a whole new me!! like he has changed my life.. and has made me even stronger!! like it was the most hardest thing in my intire life seeing him past away.. but it just means if i have came this far then.. it means i can make it through harder stuff to.. i mean yes when he died i was depressed forever!! but one day.. i just felt him next to me!! and as soon as i knew he was by my side i started to get out and start doing stuff again.. and tryed not to be so hard on myself.. i mean i cant even explain how much he has changed me!!! but i really do miss him so very much!! its starten to get hard again.. just cuz the year is gettin closer!! its sad to think back oh i remeber he was at this thing with me.. and we where just having a blast and then to think but now he isnt here anymore to do that.. so then you get all sad again.. i mean all summer i was doin that.. i went to places i went with calvin last summer and it just brought back memories... good memories!!! but was wishing he was here! but this thursday is my birthday and i remember my friend kadee had a suprise birthday party for me and invited calvin to it.. but he couldnt come cuz he had football... so that night after my party calvin finally texted me cuz i havent texted him in like 2 days or so cuz we where just so busy.. and after my party he texted me and said that he was sorry that he didnt come and stuff.. and that he wish he would have.. but i just remember me going to school and i was walking in the hall and i pasted him and he didnt even tell me happy birthday.. lol and so then my friend ariana bumped into him and was like hey did you tell amber happy birthday? and he goes oh crap no i forgot! so he went through all the halls lookin for me just to tell me happy birthday and then he finally found me and came up to me and was like amber!! happy birthday!! and i was like aw thanks! lol and he goes i went through every hall lookin for you just to tell you that! and i was like o man calvin! you make me laugh! thanks! your so sweet! haha but he always made me laugh all the time!!!! i just miss him way to much!! and i love him so much!!!!

laughing week!

this week has been a laughing week for me!!! this whole week i just have been laughing! so sunday night i was talkin on the phone and then all a sudden i just bursted out laughing for no reason.. i laughed for like 15 min. straight!!! i couldnt stop! then the next day at school i just started laughing for no reason again... in class! i got in trouble... but it was funny! every one thought i was a freak!! haha then after school i went home and i started laughing again.. but this time my brother did something funny to make me laugh.. so i was laughing really hard. then tuesday i was talkin to this guy i like on the phone and he just started laughing for no reason and i was like whats so funny? and he was like nothing... and started laughing again so then i start laughing. then he told me to stop laughing and i just laugh like ten times harder! and i couldnt stop and he probably wanted to hang up on me.. but it was so funny! then wensday my friend kadee sent me a pic of her and o my gosh!!! that pic was so funny!! i probably laughed for like 30 min straight not even joking!! i couldnt stop laughing cuz i couldnt stop looking at it!!! but then later that night my dad made me laugh.. cuz he tripped on a truck and fell backwards down the stairs and it was just so funny cuz iv never seen my dad fall down the stairs like that... i probalby laughed for another 20 min. haha so you have no idea how bad my stomach mucels hurt right now.. just from laughing so hard this week!! but its been a good week with all my laughing!!!

europe!

my friend today was texting me and we where playing truth over texting. and he told me he asked me what i would do if he left to go to europe and i couldnt talk to him for a year? and i said i would go crazy and i would be so so sad if he left!! for a whole year and i couldnt talk to him.. and he replyed back saying... really? :( cuz i am leaving this friday to go to europe cuz its for school cuz im takin college classes and so i have to go. :( and i was at school when he told me this! and i just wanted to cry! and he told me he would email me and stuff! but its still not the same!! the day i get happy is the day i get sad again... cuz my best buddy is leavin tell next may or june!! thats along time to not text him and stuff!!! im so sad he is leavin me!! i guess it will be good for him though... and it will be way fun!! i think going to europe would be so much fun!! but the onely thing is that i wont be able to talk to him... its so sad!!!! hope he makes it there okay and stuff and hope he has a fun long trip!!!! gong to miss you so much buddy!!! :( :(

broken glass and alomost car wreck!!

friday morning my mom was driving home from work! she works grave yards. she was on the high way and was by this big semi and she was really close to the tire. and i guess the semi fliped some huge rock at my mom and it the side window in the back on the left side. the glass shaddered every wear!! my mom was freakin out cuz she had no idea what the loud noise was. she was shackin and alomost got into a car crash because she was headed to the other side of the rode cuz the noise scared her half to death! but luckly there was no car on the other side of the rode or she probably would have got into a car crash. she corrected her self and got back into her right lane and looked back and saw it was the glass that made the huge loud noise! you cant really tell but there is no window here!! and the pic above is the glass every wear!!! its all inside the car i mean its every where!!! on the floor its so bad! where so lucky that my brothers wheren't in the car when this happin cuz they would have been covered in glass and that would have just been so sad!! but im glad my mom didnt get in a wreck! but she was just so scared she couldnt even talk. she was shacken so bad and crying and was breathing really heavy!! she said she hasnt been so scared in her life!!!

school!

school has finally started!!! OH NO!!! scarey!!! school started like a week ago. and i already hate it! i want it to still be summer!! to much homework going on!! i had 20 assighments this week that had to be due by this friday! it was so dumb! but i made it through... thank goodness. thought i would fail. but i didnt i got them turned in!! haha but its so much diffrent this year! and idk how it is... but im takin semenary and thats such a fun class!!!! well so far im hating school right now. haha but the only good thing about it starting is so that my birthday will come faster!! cuz i want to be 15 already!! i do i do!! i want to drive already!! yes i do i do!! i see all my old friends agian. thats a good thing!!! haha well i just cant belive school is here??? wow!!!! lets hope i can keep my grades up!!!!! :) :)

summer has gone bye bye!

wow! school starts in like a day!! where has the days gone???? its gone by so fast no joke! im so not ready for school to start! i hope this year will be tonz better then last year... today i went to the school to check out my classes and stuff. and all my teachers seem real nice!! i just hope i can get good grades!!! cuz i get confused in some classes. haha but i did that today and then after i went to calvins house to go sign his year books!!! that was so much fun!! i got to visit with his family!!! i was so glad i got to do that today!! his little brother is so cute!! he is just way funny!!! he totally is just like calvin! its so cool of how much they look alike! his little brother reminds me so much of him and the way he talks to!! and his other little brother who is now going into junior high he is so funny to!! he sounds real excited to be in junior high this year!! ill be so excited to see him around in school this year!! i cant wait!! i want to go back there and visit them again!! there so nice!! speacily his mom!! i just love his mom!! calvins mom is like the best! she is so nice!! i love looking at calvins pictures that she has on the walls and stuff. there house is really nice!!! calvin is so lucky to have such good parents like them!!! im sure he misses them dearly!! but also protecting them!! i loved hearing stories about him that his mom tells us!! there so funny! all i can say is that calvin was such a sweet caring kid!!! and i guess he loves making up storis!! he is such a funny kid!!!! i just cant wait to see him again!!! it will be a blast! but i hope i get to go back to calvins house here soon.. haha i love talking to his family! there the best!!!

grandpa!

my grandpa is 89 years old and its about his time to go... they live in colorado and my dad went up there to get corn and stuff from them and they met in grand junction and my grandpa had to use the restroom and so they figured he had alot of stuff to hold on to in the bathroon sence he cant walk that good and my dad didnt even think to go in there and help him or any thing so it was takin him a while in there so my grandma said hey will you go check on him so my dad went in there and saw him layin on the floor in the bathroom and he went to help him up and found him in a pile of blood!! and so my dad called in my grandma so they could help him sit up and they had to call the ambulance cuz he couldnt get up and tore his lip up!! and hit his head real hard... so they got him to the hospital and he had 40 stiches in his lip and hurt his shoulder and has a goose egg on his head. so he got to go home for a while. then sunday night he all a sudden got a concushion and had blood in his brain and he got to the point where he couldnt even talk any more or even walk. so they had to call the ambulance and rush him to the hospital and they told my grandma that they need to do a life flight over to the grand junction hospita cuz he needs to have an emergency sergury on his head well now he is over there and i guess they ended up not doing sergury cuz there just going to try to see if they can get it to stop bleeding.. but they said he might not make it... so my dad is up there staying!!! and my whole family is here. home. when i want to be up there. but i cant... but i want to cuz ill never ever see him again not even when i die... cuz he deosnt belive in god at all!!!! and my whole family has tried to get them in church but nothing has changed him.. and i wont see him any more... its like the end of him.. like im not going to see him any more!! and he has been the best grandpa ever!!! and i just dont know what to do... and i just want him to stay alive i dont want him to go yet!!!!!!! and my grandma thinks that this is the end that she wont ever see him again eaither... and so of course when he dies she will end up killing herself cuz thats what she said she will do... and iv never felt this way in my life... iv never felt so much pain in me... cuz i love them very very very much!!! and this is really going to be the end!!!! forever!!!!!! he just cant die yet... i need him still... and i just want to be able to get him in church and talk to him and tell him god is real!! and that he should belive in him!!! i just need 2 or 3 or 4 more years of him living!! my whole family has prayed alot for him.. and still nothing has changed... it just keeps gettin worse... and i dont know what to do..... cuz all im ever giong to have is his memories... thats it... and i wont even see him any more... this is the hardest thing im ever going through.... and once he dies my dad will be sad forever cuz he is going to blame him self for him dieing cuz he didnt go in there to help him go to the bathroom.... really what do i do????????? i just feel heart broken..... grandpa!!!! im going to miss you so so much!!! it wont be funny of how much i wil miss you!!!!!!!!!!! just please always remember that i love you with my whole heart!!!!!! and that pic up there i will always remember that smile of yours and how you always made me laugh!!! thank you so much for coming to my dance compitions and thank you so much for making all the trips for are whole family to go to!! iv had so much fun with you!!!!! and nothing will ever be the same it wont!!!!!!! im going to miss talkin to you on the phone every sunday... and im going to miss going to your house!! im going to miss every thing!!!!!!!!!!!! grandpa i cant belive this will be the end!!!!!!!! i love you with my whole heart!!! please rememeber that and make good choices!!!! cuz im never going to forget you!!!!! i love you with my whole life!!! goodbye grandpa.... forever... i hope you make better choices when your up there.... goodbye....... my favorite grandpa!!!!!!!

the 24th week and fairview!!

well my 24th week i went up to fairview to stay with my grandma and grandpa that i dont get to see much and with my uncles cuz its a tradition iv been staying with them every year around the 24th cuz we always go to the dirby and the rodeos and the kids rodeos cuz my brothers have rode sheeps and stuff. well this year we decided to go a little bit early this year so we could stay 6 days. this year was so diffrent! i didnt like it at all!!! so so much diffrent! my one uncle has moved to st. george with his girlfriend soon to be his wife so he wasnt down at my grandmas tell like 3 days after we got there.. so we couldnt play night games or anything we just had to sit up stairs and watch tv. and my other uncle just is to busy for us and he doesnt like palying night games any more so he isnt that much fun any more... and my cousin that came she just turned 18 and so she acts like she has to be all grown up and she just isnt that fun any more eaither... and it was just so diffrent and i kept getting left out sometimes and i feel like i have to impress my uncles so that they will like me like they like my cousins cuz they just leave me out so i feel like i have to impress them and i try my hardest to be fun and to be there and try my hardest so that they wil like me but its just not workin. this year is so weird. you know iv had the crapiest summer ever. like my summer has been awsome but at the same time really crapy.. why does life have to be that way ever sence my best friend died just more and more bad stuff happin to me its like they dont want my pain to go away people just want to keep hurting me and hurting me until i just drop dead!

i got really home sick to! like way bad! cuz that family just never included me really so i didnt feel loved or any thing so i just wanted to go home and cry... but then again the week was okay. we went to the dirby!! that was freakin awsome! im so glad my parents came this year. that way i didnt feel to sad! cuz i had them to talk to. but it was awsome! i took pictures and we did fireworks and stuff!!! and we played night games and we had some fun!! half was okay week and the other half was just a bad week. haha but we had fun!! and we got to eat pizza and ew.. im so sick of hambergers i have had them this whole week flat out!! i am so sick of them now.. haha and we got to go fishing! and me and my cousin got chased by 2 snakes and a bee and then i fell into a pile of red aunts!! that day was crazy and it was very scary! haha but my grandma was laughing! those snakes are just gross! i was freakin out! but that was pretty much my 24th week! oh yeah and the rodeo was awsome to! i like the bull riding! and my brothers did great on the sheep! well i hope every one had a better 24th of july better then i did!! lol

SUMMER ALMOST OVER!

WOW!! i cant belive how fast summer has gone by! only a month tell school starts.... great!! 9th grade how scary!! im terrified to say im a freshmen!! how sad... great!! grades start counting! oh boy so much fun... this summer has been so much fun!! except all the baby sittin i have done. but its worth cuz i have saved up 400 dollars to go shopping for school! cant wait! but i loved swimming, camping, hanging out with friends, sleepovers, family reuions, running, dancing, and chillin with cute guys. haha, going to rodeo's, mt pleasent, and still have more going.. cuz this week im going to be gone all week pretty much. monday dance then im going to seven peaks. then tuesday dance and then that night im leavin to go to fairveiw! and ill be up there tell sunday! cant wait so much fun up there. im going to a dirby on friday and my brothers are riding sheeps and calfs. its going to be awsome!! and then we will be riding horeses to cuz i have my own horse there. im excited to see her!! and my uncle and aunt are getting a new house here soon so ill be helping with that. and to much stuff i still have to do and we only have a month left.... how sad... but this summer is awsome! just wish i could be here for the 24th cuz i never am. i wish i was. but oh well... so much more to do and less time!!! cuz SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER! then back to school for another 9 months. well hope every one else had an awsome summer!!!

family reuion!!

i went to a family reuion yesterday! i just got back from it! havent been to this family reuion forever cuz i have always been in fairview when they palnned it but this year they planned it earlier so i could go this time! it was nice to see my whole family again! its crazy how people grow up so fast! but we have property up indian ola and thats where we have it every year and we always go camping and swimming and playing games and just visit. its always so much fun! and we go fourwheeling to!! thats always fun! cuz i can drive it now!!! i took this pic of a open view!! its really pretty up there! and its so green this year! thats a shocker that every thing would be so green cuz i thought it would be dead cuz its been so hot!! but about maby a week ago or something like that there was a fire up by indian ola i cant remember what the place was called but it got hit by lighting or something like that. but we where on our way up there and we could still see the fire! it was cool. then this is my little cousin on the fourwheeler! he is the cutest kid ever! every time i see him he just makes my day! cuz he is always happy to see me and im glad! cuz im always happy to see him!! me and my aunt took him on the fourwheeler! and he loved it! he was like laughting! it was so cute!! i couldnt stop laughing at him. then this is my family! we where all sitting by the camp trailer just resting and talking! you cant see the rest of my family but there all behind but this is my mom and dad sitting here. we always chill! it was so hot up there! but then it started to cool off and then it rained on us it sucked but then the clouds moved away and the sun came right back out and it was hot again. haha but i love camping! we always have fun camping! and i always take my grandpas fourwheeler and drive it all the time! i like takin my brothers and cousins on four wheeler rides. its the best!!!

this is my little cousin cokaley!!! he is so cute!! but he is one chunky baby!!! i love chunky babys! my dad was holding him up there! and he likes my dad he was being so good haha his face is so freakin cute!! he is almost 4 months old! but i had a fun fun time at the family reuion!!! cant wait for next year!!!!

china!

i got this foward on my phone sayin: "all retards in 2009 in september there all shippin you off to retard land so hurry little buddy i want you to run run fast little buddy hurry!! fwd to all your friends!" and when i got that foward i remembered last year in 2008 summer i got that fwd from calvin and i started laughing when i got it! and so i sent the same fwd back to him and i texted him sayin "oh geese!" and he just started laughing! and he was like run little buddy run!"and so i said "ok i will! but you better start running to" and he said okay i will. where are you running to?" and i told him im running to china and he goes "oh really i am to." and i was like sweet!" and he goes "yeah i can see you running" and i was like "oh i can see you to" and so we where "pretending" to go to china. and he texted me back sayin "oh crap!! i just ran into a chinese kid!" and i started laughing so hard! and i was like "really?" and he goes "yeah didnt you see it? oh crap here comes his dad he looks real pist i better run!" and i just burst out laughing again!! and i said "where you running to? and he goes "im going to a fire work store" and i said why?" and he goes im getting a cherry bomb so i can blow the kid up!!" and i was like "oh sweet i want to watch you do that!" and he goes "okay. here i go! wow! did you see that? i just stuck a cherry bomb down his throat! yes oh crap here comes his dad lets run for it fast!!" and i could not stop laughing it was so freakin funny!! and i was like "that was awsome! but you made the dad real mad now! we better book it!!" and he goes "okay i bet i can race you home!" and i said yeah right like you can catch up with me??" and he goes want to bet?" and i said "yeah" and he goes "k here i go haha now im a head of you!" and i was like not any more!" and he goes ha ha where home now and i kicked your butt!! lol" and i was like "oh geese calvin dang it you did win me! and he goes "yup told ya i would!" and then i said! "calvin you make me laugh so hard!! ha ha cuz he does alot!! but that was are trip to china over text. lol it was pretty awsome!! but its so funny cuz he loves to just blow up stuff! and i thought it was funny he said he blew up a china kid!! ha ha wow! that kid made me laugh so hard! ha ha but that fwd just reminded me of last year when he said that... ha ha but i really miss him!! i miss havin him around and i miss how he made every body laugh!!! he was such a great friend to me!! and still is!!!!!

staduim of fire!

well as i told you i got to dance in the staduim of fire! it was pretty awsome!! but real hard work! but totally worth it all!! so i dont have pic's right now cuz im trying to figure how to get them off my camra. but any ways thursday night was the night i started practices for the dance and im just glad it was not hot it was more cloudy. then after that night was over went home and went to bed cuz i had to get up at 5 in the morning to go practice again and holey cow i was there tell 6a.m tell 10p.m on friday!! it was so hot on friday! and we where practicing on fake grass so it was buring through my shoes and i had blisters on my feet it really hurt! and i got sun burned really bad to! and i even put a ton of sunscreen on! but then later around 5 we went over to the staduim of fire to do a rehersal and stuff! and we finally got done about 10 then i went home and i crashed and burned on the couch cuz i had to get up really early again at 5a.m but this time we didnt practice that long we just practice tell 12p.m but it was so hot so i got sun burned even worse! i was dying!! but after that practice i went home and got sleep and put cooling jell all over my sun burns. it felt good! but then we had to be at the staduim about 6 so i got up and got ready for it.

then when we got there they had to check are bags so all the water bottles we had they made us dump all our water out!! cuz they told us we had to use there's!!! it was so so stupid! i was so mad!! cuz there bottle of waters there where about 4 dollars!! it was redicouls!!! it was dumb!
but then we got in there and i was heading to the dressing room and then all a sudden you hear all these girls screamin so i was like whats going on?? and i found out the jonas brothers came in to go to the trailer and i guess they had a bunch of gaurds around them and all the girls where trying to get in there and see them. haha it was awsome! but then we danced and there was like millions of people there like a ton! and then we got to see the jo bros and watch fire works and we got to see the flag be burned!! that was cool to!! it was all awsome! i just love staduim of fire!! but probably my last time being in it! sad day!!!! but when i figure out my camra ill have to put up pic's.

crazy life!!!

well last week i had girls camp!!!! it was so much fun! i went up payson canyon!!we made sweat shirts up there it was so much fun this is a pic of my sweat shirt i made with paint. it was pretty awsome!!!

then this next pic is kadee. my friend. we love to climb the rafters its so much fun!! we always get in them. but this year was kinda weird cuz we couldnt get in them at night en less you where brave cuz we had bats. it was scary. i was sleeping and bats would fly close to my face. it was very very weird and scary lol i kept screaming and hiding in my sleeping bag so the first night i didnt get very much sleep. and we had mice in are cabin to. ew... i hate mice!!!

then these are my camp leaders by the camp fire you cant really tell. but ya. ha ha i love sitting by the fires we roasted marsh mellows and stuff. and we went snipe hunting at night and we caught like 2 of them but they kept running away. and i love the faith walk it was so sad but pretty!! i just love girls camp its way fun!!! but i had alot of fun cant wait for next year. we do pranks on other wards thats always fun!!! and we stayed up all night to. one of are leaders got mad cuz we where so loud ha ha it was funny! but i had a great time! we made these journals to. and also did a whole lot of other things to.

When i got home from girls camp i had to hurry and un pack and get clothes washed and stuff and leave again cuz i was heading to colorado the next day like early in the morning like after my dance. cuz i had dance practice at 5:30 in the morning tell 9 so my mom and dad had to come get me early and then we left to colorado then we got there and visted my whole family and got family pic's then that saturday night we did fire works and o my gosh we went to find some and when we where at the fire work store and was looking well you know pops that you through on the ground?? well we found some but wow there not like the regular pops holey cow!!! the guy told us that they where louder so we told him to try one so he did and i didnt expect it to be so loud but it was it scared the crap out of me!!! they are so so loud not even kidding!! so we got like 4 boxs of them. haha there pretty awsome!!! but then we went home and did fire works then went back to are hotel and then the next day we ate and packed up and left. then we got home. and then this whole week i have staduim of fire practics like all day long!! well just thursday and friday and saturday. today we just have a 4 hour practice and tomorrow to. and early the morning i went to try out for heart n soul cuz i think thats where im going to take dance now. im kinda excited but some of the girls there are bratty big time!! so i hope it will go okay. i have to learn the dance today and tomrrow then i try out wensday for heart n soul. im excited just cuz i get to dance again!!!! ha ha but these 2 weeks had and are going to be so crazy for me! its like go go go pack pack pack ha ha im not even kidding i havent been home for like ever! cuz i just keep going and going and going. ha ha crazy life!!! ill tell you that. ha ha but iv had fun!!!

crazy life

dentist! today!

O MY GOSH!!! so today i went to the dentist cuz i

had to get cavities filled and i was getting like fake teeth on composite teeth on. cuz by my two front teeth and on both sides of my front teeth i had small small perment teeth and they look like baby teeth still and it was so ugly and so i never liked to smile well i got composite on them to build up the space and wow!! did it make my smile so much prettyer!! now i love to smile!! but let me tell you it hurt so freakin bad! they like shuved it up my gums i was like ready to jump off the chair it was killing ha ha but it was so worth it!!! i wish i had a pic of me with my teeth before so i could show you what they look like before! but i dont think i have one witch is sad. lol but oh well. but i love my new teeth im so happy i got them!! cuz i always wanted braces but now that you look at them i dont really need them any more cuz it was just the space on my little teeth that made it seem like i needed braces cuz sence now they built on them i dont really need braces cuz there like almost perfect now!! but i was so happy when i saw them!! cuz i love my smile now alot better!!!!! but ya these are some pic's of me with my new teeth!! its pretty freakin awsome!!

swimming!!

Today i actally got out and swam today!! it was so much fun!! today i went to the spanish fork pool with my freinds kadee, and kayla. we had a blast! when we where there i saw a few old freinds there. it was pretty cool. well we went over to the baby pool to get in the bigger pool and all a sudden i saw someone that looked like calvin just younger and so i kept looking at him and i turned to kadee and kayla and said hey look isnt that cole calvins little brother and kadee was like no i dont think so and i was like are u sure? cuz it looks like him and she was like idk and so i yelled his name and he looked at us and kadee was like yup that is cole and i said see told you and she was like well i couldnt tell and i was like how can you not tell he looks just like calvin ha ha and she goes ya your right. ha ha and so we where waundering if his mom was there so kayla and i went up there to talk to him and we asked if his mom was there and he goes no im here with my cousins and i was like oh fun! and he goes ya and then kayla asked if his other brother clayton was here and he said no he was like at scout camp thing and then we just told him to say that we say hi to his family and then he just said ok and then walked off and went down the slide. ha ha he is the cutest kid ever!! calvin always talked about him!! he is one cute kid and so is clayton!! calvins parents raised a beatiful family!! cuz there all cute kids!!!! but then we just went down the slide to and the diving bored. ha ha but i had a fun day today!! i want to go swimming again!

getting into pics and being bored

this is me and my best frined kimmy
ha ha we love to take pics but i edited this
one to!!!! ha ha

i edited this pic of me.. ha ha i was really bored today. well i was at the libary and took this pic of me and in that pic i was thinking of my friend calvin cuz i was at the park and me and calvin and my other friend went to the park with him and it just brought back the fun memories we had!! and it almost seemed like he was right there next to me.... and i could tell he probably was cuz all a sudden i just got really happy like he came to make me happy! cuz i could just pic him out there playin with my little brothers cuz thats what he did last time.. ha ha it was so cute!! but i really miss him alot!! but it was good to go back to the libary cuz after his accident i havent really gone back to the park or libary cuz it would make me sad.. but when i went there it was like he was right there with me and he was just hangin out with us.. just like the old times.. it was an amazing feeling. so i was glad i went there that day!! cuz it gave me a great feeling and being happy instead of sad!

staduim of fire!

this year im dancing in the staduim of fire! its so so much fun! this will be like my 3rd year doing it! im so excited to be in it! every one should get tickets and come watch it! cuz its going to be really cool! i heard! i will post more about it and put pictures up and stuff for you all to see it! it will be amazing! and really excited to be in it! it takes alot of practice though cuz july 2 and 3 and 4 im going to be practicing like all day! well just the 3rd 6:30 in the morning tell 11 at night!! its going to be so tiring and hard but i think its worth it! and then like the 2nd just tell like 7pm tell 11 and then the 4th at 6:30 in the morning tell 12pm. but i just hope it wont be like way way hot like the last 2 years we practiced cuz the last 2 years of practice it was like 104 outside it was way hott!!!

the big recital!

on monday, June 1, 2009 was my dance recital... and last time dancin with my family.. cuz i posted it about how there going to shut down my dance company... pretty soon... well so that monday was the big thing!! so.. it was at the ala school and i had to be there at 2 to practice and so we practiced and we got interviewed by this lady cuz she was maken videos for malinda.. (thats my dance teacher who owns the whole company thing and has been running it for like forever im going to guess probably like 27 years or so... and she also had like 2 other dance teachers help her cuz she got another job doin airplanes so they also taught us to and there names are jill and shaylee!) and anyways we all got interviewed and some of the moms to and the moms where crying and i was like great this is going to be really really sad recital!! well when malinda left for a little bit we hurried and ran are lyrical that we just barely made up for her and i had a 15 sec solo in it... it was pretty scary ha ha but then after we got done with all are dances we got to go home for a little bit. i had 6 dances i was doin.. it was pretty amazing and so so much fun!!!! but any ways i had my 3 friends come home with me kimmy, chey, kadee and then there was me and we where laughing and having fun and we all got ready together and we had to be there at 6 and the show started at 7. so we got there at 6 and we stretched and then malinda came in and she talk to us and she started crying really hard... i felt so bad for her.. and then we had a prayer. after that my charceter dance was the very first one so we got ready and did that dance and i was trying so hard not to cry... through all my dancins cuz i was going to miss dancin with them... cuz dance just wont ever be the same with out them!!! and jill and shaylee started to cry!! and it made me cry!! and it was horrible! but in other ways i think we where crying cuz we where also so happy at the same time! but then i got to the very last dance and that was are lyrical we made up for melinda and i did my solo and i did pretty good on it i thought i would mess up on it but i didnt... ha ha but then when we got done with that we went to give malinda and shaylee a big hugg!!!! and we where just like all crying. then we all sat down on the stage and where watching a slide show they put together and i was in it like 5 or 6 times and the pictures where when i was younger ha ha cuz i been dancin there for 11 years but it was really speacial to me!!! and i just cant belive its over.... i will miss shaylee and jill and melinda so so much!!! there my favorite dance teachers in the whole wide world!!!! i really really do miss them!!! and im going to miss all my friends and the little ones that where my friends!!! ah!! this is all way way sad!!!! at least the memories will stick with me forever!!! i just cant belive this is really over... no more dancin with them... im so heartbroken... im really sad!! i miss you all!!! and love you guys very much!!!!!! im so thankful for my dance teachers cuz they help me improve alot!! like im not even kidding like from when i started like 11 years ago wow i do so much better!! and i thank them so much for helping me get better!!! if it wasnt for them then i dont know what i would have done!!!!!! thank you!!!!!

last time.... dancin... maby... :( :( :(

o my gosh!!! so today i got the worst news ever in my intire life well not entire life cuz i got worse but today... well... i went to dance. and my dance teacher her name is jill well.. she was talking to us and she said she had some really bad news... and so we sat down and listin and we got a letter saying that this is the last year of dancin cuz there closing down the studio.... :( for good!!! so after july 4, we will no longer have the studio.... and as soon as i heard that i like broke down inside.... cuz they told us we would probably have the studio for at least 2 or 3 more years and we where planning out all this stuff and dance's to do next year... and now... we cant any more.... and my whole life is on dancing!!!!! i love dancing so much!!!! and iv been dancin there sence i was 2 years old... and i love my dance teacher jill and my other one shaylee!!!!! and it just hurts to know that there closing it down... and im not going to see them any more.... im so so so very sad... and i just pretty much cried all day today.. cuz i love dancin so much... and my whole life i kept dreaming i was going to become a famous dancer and i thought my dream was going to come true but now... i dont think it will... cuz i dont know where to go any more... to go dance... and i dont really want to go to a new place and have to make new friends all over again... its so hard for me cuz people hate me and make fun of me... and i just want to stick to my old team cuz i had 3 best freinds there with me... and 1 of them has been dancin with me sence they where 2 to! and i just had the best 12 years of dancin!! ever!! i just dont want to quiet dancin just not yet!!! it bugs me if i havent danced for like 2 days and so i dance in my house!! im always dancin always... ill dance in my house... ill dance while im mowing the lawn... ill dance in the car when where on the rode... ill dance riding my scooter... ill dance in a parking lot... ill dance any where at any time... ill dance in parades... ill dance in staduim of fire.... ill dance all over the world... ill dance if you tell me to... ill dance in my front yard... ill dance everywhere.... i even dance in stores.... ha ha but im going to miss dancin so bad... im so crushed that this is happining.... im never going to stop dancin every where... ill tell you that right there.. never.. but the thing im going to miss is being with my friends and just dancin my heart out with them... and going to place to place every month and competeing against alot of people and dancin in front of alot of people... and winnging 1st place or 2nd or 3rd or 4th and then staying at awards and cheering and screaming at what place you got... and just being so so happy!!! and then after going swimming with all your friends.. and just partying after!!! im going to miss every bit of that.. and im going to miss when i was hyper in my dance class and i would just make my whole team laugh there heads off... im going to miss every little bit about that... im going to miss it.. cuz im not going to see any of my friends now... nobody.. and i just came so close to them. they feel like family to me!!! acatully i do call them my family cuz iv been there with them through all of it!! and we stick together all the time and we always cheer people up!!! and where all sisters!!! i love them all!!!! and now im going to miss every bit of them!!!! this is not fair at all... im going to miss every thing.... i cant belive there shutting down.... i dont want to stop dancing!!! its my life... and now i have no idea what im going to do now..... im so so very sad!!! this cant happin!!! im going to miss you all so very very much!!! my heart is dieing in pain every sec.... cant belive this.... :(

back to the old jobs!!

wow!! its spring!!! thats always exciting but its back to the old jobs on weekends getting up mowing lawns wow the joy in that.... ha ha i usalally hate mowing the lawns cuz i always have to do it... but this spring i started mowing lawns last week... and i actually liked it.. ha ha and i told my parents that this year probably wont be a problem to get my butt out there and do it... but idk cuz i just mowed my lawn yesterday. and i didnt want to.. but i did it.. and its pretty fun when you have like an ipod or mp3 player to listin to music why you mow the lawn.. ha ha but i like mowing lawns right now.. but later on after i do it more and more ill probably end up hating it!! and not wanting to do it any more.. cuz it gets boaring after a while.. and i hate mowing my back yard cuz its so umongo!!!! i swear!! but it onely takes me about 1 hour to mow my lawns... but im just glad that spring is here!!! whoo hoo!!!!! and school we onely have 2 more weeks that even more excting!! wow the year has gone by so fast!!!!!

crazy crazy week!!!

last wensday my dad was really sick and we thought he had the flu well... my dad said his stomach hurts really bad where his inpendix are so my mom kept tellin him o no its just the flu well it never got better so that night my mom decided to take him to the ER and they took him in and did some tests on him.. when there where done with the tests the results came out and they said it was his inpendix so they admited him that night and in the morning they would do surgery on him. so the morning came and my mom woke me up about 6:40 saying she is going to go over to the hospital now.. so i had to stay home all day and tend my brothers. they did sergury on him a little bit before 8 and my mom kept waiting and waiting. finally he came out of the sergury and they took him to the recovering room. and he stayed there tell he woke up. well when he woke up the doctor came in and told my mom that when they where doing his sergury his impendix burst. so he had a drain in him.. and they admitted him to the hospita tell friday. so me and my brothers came over thursday night and they said he still has alot of infection in him so he is going to have to stay tell saturday now. so friday came and we went in and they came to check on my dad and they said k he still has alot in him.. so if something doesnt change your going to loose your husband they kept telling us that.. so then they said he was going to stay tell sunday.. and i was so upset cuz i didnt want to lose my dad... not someone who i really love.. i already lost 2 of the people who i truley love and i wont lose another one cuz if i do im going to break down.. cuz i cant stand losing people i love. its to hurtful!! but i wont lose another one.. my dad will fight!! i kept tellin him that. i said dad you cant do this to us.... you have to live!! you cant leave us yet... just not yet.. you still have to see me get married and walk down the ile and you still have to see your grandchildren.. you still have to teach me how to drive.. you have so much to teach me so you cant leave yet.. dad.. i need you more then you think!!! and dad your strong!! i know you are!! come on you have to fight you do!! and my dad was like barely awake and he just kept saying amber ill try.... my best to fight.... and i just bursted into tears because he seemed like it right there my dad wasnt going to make it... cuz he kept closing his eyes and i layed on him saying dad please dont leave yet.. please i need you!! please!! fight!! its all im asking for is to stay with us just a little bit longer.. come on u can do it.... and he just sat there with his eyes closed and then he fell asleep for a little bit and i started really crying cuz he was so weak... and my mom took us home... and i didnt want to go.. but i had to. i had to be strong for my mom. so we went home. my mom went back then came home late that night and then the next day it was a miracle!!!! his infection has gone way way down!!! and i was so so happy i started crying!!! so they said he could go home saturday.. so they took his drainer out that day and sent him home to us... so he could be home with us again. i was excited!!! you have no idea!!! i love my dad so so so much!!! im so happy he is doing so much better!! and im so greatful for that blessing!!! it was a mericale!!!! now he is doin just fine i think!! but i hope nothing like that happins to me again... cuz that was so painful just going in there to watch my dad die every sec of the day.. to to horrible to do that.. i was in so much pain... but things are better now!! hope i dont have to go through that for a long time now...

crashing... for the very first time!!!!!

well.. today i went to ride my motor scooter. and i kept thinking to myself cuz i kept hitting rocks and i was like that would be so scary if i just like crashed and hit my head and had a head concushion... but then i was oh.. i better be careful. cuz i dont have a helmet yet. and so i was slowin it down for when i would hit a rock.. well... my brother crashed on his bike and he was screaming bloody murder so i hurried and rode over there to see if he was ok.. well.. when i got to where he was i axedently slambed on my breaks to hard and i was leaning back and i flipped forward and i went staright to the ground my knee hit it first and i swear my knee cap moved clear up there cuz it hurts so bad and i cant even walk that good... and my hand was all scrapped up and i hit my head pretty hard on the rode.. it kills so bad!!! i just layed there on the rode to make sure i wasnt dead. cuz it happin so fast. i was like so scared.. and i just kept laying there and my neighbors came over and they kept asking me all these questions to make sure i was ok. but i just layed there in shock and i didnt even speak... and so they told my brother to get my parents so my dad came rushing out and was like amber amber are you okay? and i just wouldnt speak.. and i sat there for a while thinking of what just happen then finally after a while as my dad picked me up i finally started to talk a little bit and my dad took me to lay me on the grass and he looked at my knee and i scraped it up pretty bad.. same with my hands. and i just got a pretty bad head ache and a bump but no scartch thank goodness... but it kills so bad.. that was so very very very scary.. im still shakin from what just happin.... and my knee pretty much kills like no other... but my very first time crashing on my scooter.... how freakin scary!!!!!!!

easter.....

well... i found out im not going to be here for easter... :( i dont want to leave i like staying with my family here in spanish fork.. no where else.. i have to go to colorodo to go see my great grandparents and i dont want to .... becasue my great grandma is like 60 or 70 and she isnt really my great grandma she is my step... grandma. and she is so mean to me.. she calls me fat all the time and she yells at me and i dont do nothing to her..and she also calls my mom fat to... she is just rude.. and she doesnt like me she even told my dad that... she thinks im ugly and stuff...and she makes my dad come up and see her.. and she told my dad that where going up this easter and she doesnt care what we have planned she wants us there.. so now i have to leave and go be with the meanest grandma ever!! i dont want to go.. she always makes me feel bad... and i just always have a horrible time down there. ..its never fun!! i mean i love seeing my great grandpa!! cuz he is so nice!! i love him.. but what stops me from going is my grandma.... if she wasnt mean to me and didnt make me feel bad and i actuaully felt like part of her family then i would want to go all the time... but she doesnt so.. ya.. but the onely thing that makes me go is just to see my grandpa. thats it!! if it was just my grandma i would beg and beg my dad to go let me stay with my other grandma or friends... cuz she always makes me cry every time!!! i hate it... sometims i just wish she would love me.. but she doesnt not one bit... it sucks.. and now i have to go spend easter with her... i was mad when i found out cuz i want to be with the family that loves me not with my step grandma that makes me feel miserable....

ST. GEORGE!!

OK.... well.. sunday i just got back from st. george!! it was so much fun. i left thursday and got home sunday. i had alot of fun! so i went up there for my dance compition..

well.. so.. thursday i stayed home from school and packed like the whole day and went to the store and got stuff i needed and then came home then we left about 3 and made it there about 730 but thats onely cuz we stoped at gas stations and ate dinner so ya. then we got there. and my best friend who i knew sence she was born told me to hurry and get my swimming suit on and go swimming so i did. and the first day up there it was kinda cold.. but the pool was really warm it felt good. but then we got done about 10 and went up stairs and went to bed.

the next day witch is friday... it was my mom's birthday so we got up and ate breakfest and then went to the hotel and then i went swimming with my best friend again. and then went back up to my hotel and then i went shopping with my mom and we gave her her present and she opened it... and then that same day i had my dance compition so when we got done we went back to my hotel and i got ready and then we headed off to the college.. i had 4 dances that i was doin.. first up was my charcter dance.. then next was my jazz then next was my hip hop then my lyrical... it was so hard cuz they where so close to eachother and so we had to hurry and change... it was fast.. ha ha but then after that was done i went back and found out my best friends brother really likes my friend kimmy.. ha ha pretty funny! so ya.. but then my other 2 bests friends that where staying in a condo came over and swam with me and chey and austin. and that was alot of fun!! then we got kicked out of the pool cuz they where closing it.. so we went and stayed in my best friend hotel tell kadee and kimmy got there ride then there ride came and then we all went to bed.. i was so so tired and did not feel to well that day..

then saturday... we woke up.. ate breakfest.. and then this time my whole family came down and swam and we all went swimming.. it was fun! then we swam for like 3 or 4 hours ha ha then i went up stairs and got ready becasue me and chey and austin and kimmy and kadee and chey cousin where going to fesista fun! so i got ready then kimmy and kadee came over to are hotel to hang for an hour then kadee mom came and picked us all up and we all went to the fiesta fun!! and we got a all day pass thing.. and it was so much fun.. they had go carts there and bumper boats and golf and arcade and it was alot of fun!! we rode the go carts alot.. ha ha maby like 20 or 25 times ha ha but ya.. and it says no bumping or we will get kicked out but my friend austin kept bumpin into me and so i had just had to bump into him.. and we spun out alot to.. but we had so so much fun!!!! that was like the best time of my life!!! it was just a blast... and austin really liked kimmy ha ha and still does.. we where there for like 5 hours i swear.. haha but we had like no adults eaither.. that was the best part... ha ha but we never got caught bumping witch was good.. but my friends think im crazy driver but also fun!! then we rode the bumper boats and omg! did we get soaked.. ha ha we kept spraying eachother with these water things.. haha it was the best!! then we ate.. and k my friend chey had 2 mt dews that day and when we where eating she had another one.. and omg! she was so hyper but so freakin funny!! she made me laugh so hard but i think her brother thought she was a retarde... but omg.. i love her to death so is so funny but she was way way to hyper.. not even kidding you.. ha ha but it was funny!!! we had a blast at that feista fun!!! then we got picked up and went back to the hotel and we all went swimming again... and then we went to bed...

then sunday... we got up ate breakfest and then packed up and went home.. i didnt want to go home cuz i wanted to stay in the warm weather it sucked!! we went home in complete white out snow!! it was so bad.. when we where coming home.. but we made it home safe and sound... even though it was so freakin cold!! ha ha but i liked st. george.. i got sunburned and tan.. ha ha.. and i also found out i got 1st place in all my dances except hip hop we got 2nd.. we did so so much better this compition.. im proud!!!!!!!!!! well... this was an awsome trip ever!!! i didnt want to go home... but oh. well.. ha ha my favorite trip ever!!! it rocked!!!!!!!!!

excited!!!

well so today... my dad finally fixed my scooter!!! i was very excited! cuz k my motor scooter has been broken for about almost 2 years now!! and its cuz my back tire was going to fall off so i had to get a new one and so like when it very first broke i told my dad will you get the part please! and he said maby it depends on how much it costs and i said okay.. and then i would keep bugging him about every day... then he would keep tellin me ok ill look it up on the internet. and i kept sayin ok. and then he still wouldnt so i just said dad please!! and he still wouldnt.. he said that i would have to wait a while. and i was very sad cuz then i was bored.
so... i finally gave up askin him to get me the part!! cuz i know my dad his work is way more important then fixing his own kids stuff.. i mean i could have tookin it somewhere and had them fix it in like a day it wasnt really that hard to just freakin take a wheel off and put a new one on. but apparently to my dad it would take to much of his time to get his work done to fix my scooter. so i just gave up! and then finally christmas came and i knew exactly what i wanted and i said i want the new part for my scooter! so on christmas day i opened up my presents and finally there was the new part for my scooter!! i was so so excited! cuz i missed riding my scooter! so then i kept askin my dad if he would fix it and again he said NO! because it was winter and i wouldnt be able to ride it anyways so i had to wait another 2 months then it came to be sunny and i asked my dad i said hey will you fix my scooter cuz its sunny and of course my dad said NO! becasue he had to much work going on... and i said ok whatever. and i just kept bugging him about it!! and he said amber stop it! i promiss i will have it done in a week and i said ya right your work is to important for me any ways.. it will never be fixed might as well give up on askin you to fix it! cuz you will never! and he said oh stop it! it will to. and i said ya right! your such a lier! and he was like i promiss i will. and i said k whatever and i walked off. and then it came to be thursday and i said so... are you still going to fix my scooter and he said well i might not get to it this weekend becasue i have so much work going on. but ill try to fix it next week and i said you know what? i give up askin you so dont even plan on fixing it! cuz you promissed me this week you would fix it!! so dont even fix it! dont worry about me!! ill be fine! you just do your own work and leave me alone!! and my dad was like amber stop it right now!! and i said no i wont! cuz i know you!! and then i walked off!! and i went to talk to my mom and she was like i know if i knew how to fix it i would have had it done for you! becasue i know how much you want to ride your scooter and i said ya i know... but it wont ever happin and then soon i will be driving and then i wont want to ride my scooter any more.. so that part will be a waist of money. and my mom said ya i know.. so then later i finally decided to get back on my dad case and start bugging him again.. and finally this week he said he would fix it.. i wasnt plannin on it. cuz he has already turned me down before.. so i didnt think he would but he said if i picked up sticks he would fix my scooter so i picked up sticks today and he FINALLY!! got it fixed!!! i was so excited you have no idea!! but now.. this sucks we dont have any gas cuz i used it all today riding it. and so now you watch ill have to wait anther 3 months for my dad to go get gas so i can ride it again... well so much for fixing it!! cuz now its just going to be sitting in the garage tell we get gas!!!

MY NEW BABY COUSIN!!!

this is my new baby cousin right after he got out of his mommy tummy!! he is such a cutie!! they






named him cokely! ya kinda weird name! thats what i said!! ha ha he weighs 7lbs 13oz he is 21in long!! and he was born yesterday. may 17, 2009!! right on st. patricks day! coolest day ever!! i havent seen him yet. but i will soon!! i just seen pic of him! and he is really really cute!! my aunt is so lucky! k to all you that have had babys... think of this lucky and hard at the same time.. k she didnt have an epadurl or how ever you spell that because something is wrong and if she has one she will bleed to death and die so she couldnt have one of those so she was in so so much pain and she was crying and they said ok its time for her to start and i guess you could already see the babys head comeing out and she pushed once and he came out infact my mom said she didnt really push that hard and he was already coming out... how lucky! is that!! ha ha and she did just fine no problems or nothing!! she did just fine!!! but idk what that feels like cuz im too young and so ya... haha but he is so cute!!! but i was kinda mad i didnt get to go the hospital with my mom to see her have it!! but oh. well. im so excited cuz my aunt told my mom that she trusts me alot and she said i get to baby sit him alot.. i love baby sitting my cousins speacial when there little!! like me and my other little cousin who just like barely turned 1 he loves me to death and its just cuz i baby sat him like almost every day! and i still do!!! he loves me!! and i love him to!! im like is 3rd mother.. haha but he is a dawl to!!! there both very cute!!!

Here is another pic of him!! ha ha he looks grumpy in this one!! but my mom has a better one of him!! he has alot of hair! no joke!! but he is so cute!! and its like dark brown hair... such a dawl!! i cant wait to see him and hold him!! i just love babys there my fav!! i love to hold them. my whole intire family calls me a baby hogger!! ha ha cuz i always still all the little babys away!! but i cant help it! there just so dang cute!!! and i also love baby sittin them!! acutully to tell you the truth i just love baby sittin any kid even if there like 11 or 8 or like all sorts a age!! ha ha so if you need me to baby sit im always here... lol but ya... he is such a cutie!!!! i have been waitin for 9 months for this little cute kid to come out!!! oh ya and by the way just in case you didnt know he is a boy!! lol

The weather!!

I just love the new WEATHER! i hated the snow! but i love spring and summer. every time i wake up i can hear the birds chirping. and it just makes me so happy. every time i wake up! im like oh it sounds like spring to me!!! ha ha.. i love spring. the other day i acutully got to go outside and paly baseball. that was so much fun! i got to acutully go outside and run and just have fun! it felt so good. cuz i hate being stuck in the house its so boaring... but i had alot of fun! i cant wait to play football next!! that is also alot of fun!! i hope its done snowing.. cuz i love it hot! its like the right tempature now!! yesterday i got to go outside and Run and dance in my front yard... wow!! do i love spring and summer!!! sometimes i forget i can go outside. ha ha but im excited that its acutully startin to warm up! i can now take my little brothers to the park! fun fun!! im excited cuz my little brother is signed up for t-ball and i cant wait to go to all his little games and watch him play. i love watching little kids play there just so cute! and i love being there for all my brothers games. this will be a first to go to any of my brothers things cuz they havent done nothing. so this will be a first.. but my brother is really excited to play to!! and he is onely 6 years old!! how fun!!! well so glad about the WEATHER!!!!

life!

well... you know how life is always so crazy well i found that out like in 6th grade... and i hate it.... so much has happined to me this year i dont even like this year one bit... but you know nothing will ever be the same... never will... you cant do nothing about it... like i tell my friends the same thing over and over... and i just keep saying it over and over and over.... and they dont know what to say to me any more.. cuz its the same thing over and over... and they dont know how to help me. like they tell me stuff and i try to put there words into my life so it will help me but i just cant do it... it never works cuz i go right back up to being sad or something else bad happins... its so hard.... but there is nothing you can do about it.. my family trys to help me.. my friends... i mean every one.. but nothing works any more... i wish this could just get all better by now.. im so sick of feelin all this pain.. im sick of bein sad.. i know i can change it.. and i have alot of times. just like my great grandma told me... like at the christmas party right before she died.. she said amber... dont let any one bring you down.. your as pretty as the rest of the people... amber i love you... if someone is bringing you down ignore.. it walk away.. dont let them bring you down like that. your my great grandaughter... you have alot of talents your just as good as the rest of the world. i love seeing you dance. your so good at it. but just remember amber im always here for you. and always have that beatuiful smile on your face. always dont let no stupied people bring you down. your smarter then them.. if your feelin sad always remember this that i love you so much and your my sweetheart grandaughter who i can count on. your always there for me amber your always helpin me out with the little kids your just so great to me!!! i love you so much!! i love your smile and your happieness!! every time i see you or you walk through my house you always have the cutest smile on your face and that just makes me happy right away. amber you always make me way happy every time i see you!! and i love that about you. you are very speacial to me!! you never forget that. ever! just always smile even if it hurts. you can always cry but just remember always put that cute cute smile on. it will make me so happy!! i love you very much.. just like your great grandpa did... well always have the best memories forever and ever!! ill never forget my grandpa or my grandma never forget what my grandma told me... i try to be as happy as can be... i really do but sometimes i just have to break down and cry. cry cry... cuz it always helps me well at least sometimes it does... but you know life is crazy any more and i just about had it with my life.... it pretty much sucks... but im getting used to all this bad stuff happining in my life... well sorry i just had to get this out.. but i miss you grandma and grandpa!! and calvin!!!!!!

dance compition!!!

well saturday i had a dance compition at thanksgiving point... and i was so excited cuz this is my 1 compition this year and so i was way excitning and i was doin 4 dances. and so we danced them all and at the end i found out i got 3rd places on all my dances!! its so sad but my dance teacher said that this was a hard compition cuz we where against the dancers who freaken dance 7 hours every day!! now that would suck but of course there going to be that good if they dance 7 hours every day! cuz i dance 5 hours a week and if we have practice its like 7 or 10 hours a week.. and so there going to be way better then us.. but sericaly who wants to dance 7 hours every day? that would be so tiring and i would be sore every day!! and how would you get your homework done? but... i guess they love dancin like i love dancin so much and i want to become a dance teacher or a famous dancer but... still wow!!! ha ha thats all i gotta say!! well i have another dance compition coming up again in st. george in like 25 days so i hope this one goes better!!! ha ha well wish me luck!!

my crazy week!!!

o my heak!! i can never hang out!! these past few months are going to be crazy for me!!! ugh!! well compitions are coming up and its just going to be crazy!! im not ready for these 4 months ha ha.. well this week..... k so... last friday is when it got crazy k first friday night went to the school dance didnt get home tell about 11 then saturday big huge fight with my family and a sucky day... went to my friends house arianas and then went to the mall... then my dad came and picked me up from the mall and i went home and baby sat tell... like 9 or 10 then the next day.. i got up for church went to church.. then came home and baby sat.. then monday.. i had dance early in the morning and then got done with that and came home and baby sat again... and then that night went to the buck outs. and now today tuesday im baby sittin then got to do my homework.. and then tomorrow i have dance all day.. then thursday i have dance all day then friday.. i have babtisim for the dead then saturday i have dance again and then a baby shower and then sunday church and then monday dance and then my list can go on and on and on and on... but its just so crazy i dont have no time to hang out any more!! and its going to be that way for a while.... o yay!! :( well.... this is my crazy week and going to be like this for the past 4 months cuz compitions are coming up and i have one next saturday and wow!!! crazy crazy!!

my cool dream i had!!!!!

like 3 or 4 days ago i had the weirdest dream ever! dont ask my why i dreamed this but its weird and i liked it at the same time and i thought it was pretty cool... k so my dream was that i died and i was in heaven k let me tell you heaven is so freakin cool well the way i dreamed it! it was cool!!! it was like town up there and they where working and every thing and when i showed up no one saw me like there where busy and so no one like said hi to me or nothing and i was kinda freaked out but then i saw my grandma up there and talk about she was young!! and i went over there and i talk to her and i was like hey grandma! and she turned around and she was all like o hey amber!! how r u? and just talking to me like that... and i said o im doing good.. im so glad i can see you now and my grandma was like i know and then i asked her where calvin was and she said turn around and so i turned around and she goes go talk to him so i went over there and i was like omg!!! hey calvin!!!! and he was like hey.. who r u? and i was like o my heak!! dont you remember me amber? and then he liked screamed and was like omg!! yes hey amber!!! and then he gave me like a big hug!! and i was like wow!! its so good to see you again! and he was like i know i missed ya!! and i was like i know me to! and he was like ya i know i could tell... lol and i was like ya.. and then he was like pushing a barrowl and ran over some kids toe and was like ha ha i just ran over your toe and then the kid started crying and then calvin was like o did that hurt and the kid was like yes and he started crying even more.. and then he was like o im sorry then the kid just ran off and told his mom and then i asked calvin where boomer was and he was like o some where fetchen a bone and i was like okay then... lol and then i like left and this is the cool part i think of the dream!!! wowza!!! k any ways!! i went and talked to heavenly father!! but it was so werid cuz i couldnt see his face!! it was just i big shiney white blank spot!! i could see his body but not his face!! it was werid and his voice was like low and manly and he told me welcome daughter to heaven!! and i was so excited!! like way excited that i got to talk to him but then i woke up!! how sad is that?!?!? right at the good point i woke up!! geese that makes me so mad that i did that!! ha ha but i thought it was so cool... wow i cant wait to go to heavin that was just amazing!!! every one is so happy up there... there is no drama every one is just laughing and o my heak!! i just can not wait to be up there with my heavenly father again!!!

bored!

hey! im so bored right now and right now im waiting for kimmy to get off work so we can go to arianas b-day party!! yay..... haha but ya... there is nothing to do but sit here thats pretty much it how boreing is that??? geese... lol but well... today i went to kadee basketball game!!! talk about intence! lol i wanted to get up there and play with them.. ha ha but it looks hard cuz they run and run and run.. ha ha im not that great at it... but ya.. i need to do that more though and get in shape more for dance... ha ha i dont know y but running sounds fun right now. lol im just crazy lol o geese im startin to act like my friend kadee who says lol alot lol and thats me cuz now she got me saying lol alot now again.. ha ha geese kadee whats up with that? jk jk but any ways i can hear my brother playin rock band and dang i like this song its a good one its weird song but i like it its called im a creep... lol so funny!! me and my friends always have fun playing that game and i also got sing star pop talk about awsomely fun!! i love singing its so much fun! and we also play that. and i got sing star country comeing yay!! im so excited becasue i love country music!! i used to hate it all the time and now... its so weird cuz now i love it so much! i mean i could listing to a song over and over and over and not get sick of it!!!! how funny is that? i feel like gettin hyper i think i am yay!! exciting well gotta go up date somtime later on!!!

going crazy!!!!!

im going crazy cuz my dad left.... cuz he drives truck and they called him out to take a load up to casper then denver then back to casper then juiluen and then back up to denver and he left thursday morning and i didnt think i would miss him this much but holey cow talk about i do!!! i miss him very much!!! and i was scared cuz its supposed to be very stormy where he goes and so ya... but i miss him already and its only been 2 days and im going crazy with out him here.... i love him very much!! i didnt relize how much i loved my daddy tell now.... cuz i mean i get sick of him alot cuz he just bugs me alot.... lol and it bugs the crap out of me and i just get so mad at him.... ha ha but ya. and i have been such a brat lately and ugh.... i just miss him so so so much... i hate getting up in the morning's when he isnt there cuz he would always fight with me in the morning always... lol just to try and wake me up... and i miss that so much.. its no fun getting up in the mornings with out him there its just not... and every song reminds me of him cuz every song that would come on the radio he would come up to me saying hey amber who sings this song? and i would be like um.. idk lol and then he would tell me... haha he is so funny.. i swear he knows every song... he is kinda like me lol. i miss him... so much... i just want to cry and i think i will.... he is my best friend even though i dont get along with him that well he will always be my best friend forever and ever.... he will be my hero.. if any thing happend to him i dont think i could live any more... i wouldnt know what to do if i ever lost him.... i would be depressed every day of my life.. cuz i just love him so so so so much... he calls my mom about every day and i can tell he wants to come home and be with his family again he sounds bored and depressed... and im glad and for the first time he actully told me he misses me cuz where not the whole type of family that says i love you and hugs every sec... and is a lovey dovey family... lol we just never really do that around eachother its just not are thing but thats y it suprised me so much and im glad he told me that i almost started crying when he told me that... cuz i miss him very much to... i mean i know i get sick of him but you know what i get sick of him cuz i just love him way to much... and wow..... i miss him so so so much... i pray every day so he can make it home safe... i love my daddy way to much!!!! he is my number 1 hero!!!! i will do any thing for him any thing!!! even though i will hate it but you know what its for him thats all that matters... and he wont be home tell tuesday or wensday wow that seems like along time for me!!! i cant wait to see him again!!! i will be so happy to know he made it hom safe and sound and that he can be in my arms again!!!! :) wow!!! daddy i love you way to much to ever let you go!!!! your my hero and i know that your always here for me... i love it how i can talk to you with my problems and you wont tell mom or any one thats what i love about you.. and your just way to nice dad!!!! but you know what i love every thing about you.. i cant wait tell you teach me how to drive!!! it will be fun cuz i know you can trust me!!!! dad!! one last time!!! i love you so so so much!!!!! i really really do miss you!!!! it might not sound like it but i really do dad im like crying right now for you to come home and be with us again!!! i just want you home with us again instead of somewhere far away!!!! daddy!! please make it home safe!! im praying for u!!!!! every night!!! love you so so so much!!! most of all love your laugh and smile you always know how to make me laugh and smile i get my smile from you im so happy i do!!!! cant wait to see you home again back in my arms!! love you so so much!!!!

MY GRADES!

O~M~G!!!! OK..... so its the end of the 2 term at school and in clothing i had a bad grade it was a D and i was freakin cuz im not aloud to have bad grades and stuff or ill get kicked out of dance and be sighned up for a tutor any ways so i was freakin out and stuff and i didnt know how to get it up... well we turned in like 2 assiments that last day and so i kept thinking i probably did so bad on those assiments and its going to drop me down even more and im going to be grounded for life and every thing.... well when i got home thursday i checked my grades and it still said i had a D and i was like crap well there goes my dance life and friends and stuff.... but then i saw she hasnt put in those assiments yet so i kept hoping i did good but then today i just checked them to see if she put them in... well guess what?!?! SHE PUT THEM IN AND I DID SO GOOD ON BOTH ASSIMENTS AND IT BROUGHT ME UP TO A B+ i was so EXCITED!!! cuz i wont be grounded or any thing ah!!!! well ya i have pretty good grades!! and i cant wait to show my mom and dad my grades so i can rub it in there face!! lol im so mean!! but ya well there is my week well kinda lol i have more going on cuz im going with my 2 best friends up to mt. pleasent to my best friends aunts house and staying for 2 nights its going to be a blast but i will write about that when i get back.... lol well g2g im tired.... lol bye