excited!!!

well so today... my dad finally fixed my scooter!!! i was very excited! cuz k my motor scooter has been broken for about almost 2 years now!! and its cuz my back tire was going to fall off so i had to get a new one and so like when it very first broke i told my dad will you get the part please! and he said maby it depends on how much it costs and i said okay.. and then i would keep bugging him about every day... then he would keep tellin me ok ill look it up on the internet. and i kept sayin ok. and then he still wouldnt so i just said dad please!! and he still wouldnt.. he said that i would have to wait a while. and i was very sad cuz then i was bored.
so... i finally gave up askin him to get me the part!! cuz i know my dad his work is way more important then fixing his own kids stuff.. i mean i could have tookin it somewhere and had them fix it in like a day it wasnt really that hard to just freakin take a wheel off and put a new one on. but apparently to my dad it would take to much of his time to get his work done to fix my scooter. so i just gave up! and then finally christmas came and i knew exactly what i wanted and i said i want the new part for my scooter! so on christmas day i opened up my presents and finally there was the new part for my scooter!! i was so so excited! cuz i missed riding my scooter! so then i kept askin my dad if he would fix it and again he said NO! because it was winter and i wouldnt be able to ride it anyways so i had to wait another 2 months then it came to be sunny and i asked my dad i said hey will you fix my scooter cuz its sunny and of course my dad said NO! becasue he had to much work going on... and i said ok whatever. and i just kept bugging him about it!! and he said amber stop it! i promiss i will have it done in a week and i said ya right your work is to important for me any ways.. it will never be fixed might as well give up on askin you to fix it! cuz you will never! and he said oh stop it! it will to. and i said ya right! your such a lier! and he was like i promiss i will. and i said k whatever and i walked off. and then it came to be thursday and i said so... are you still going to fix my scooter and he said well i might not get to it this weekend becasue i have so much work going on. but ill try to fix it next week and i said you know what? i give up askin you so dont even plan on fixing it! cuz you promissed me this week you would fix it!! so dont even fix it! dont worry about me!! ill be fine! you just do your own work and leave me alone!! and my dad was like amber stop it right now!! and i said no i wont! cuz i know you!! and then i walked off!! and i went to talk to my mom and she was like i know if i knew how to fix it i would have had it done for you! becasue i know how much you want to ride your scooter and i said ya i know... but it wont ever happin and then soon i will be driving and then i wont want to ride my scooter any more.. so that part will be a waist of money. and my mom said ya i know.. so then later i finally decided to get back on my dad case and start bugging him again.. and finally this week he said he would fix it.. i wasnt plannin on it. cuz he has already turned me down before.. so i didnt think he would but he said if i picked up sticks he would fix my scooter so i picked up sticks today and he FINALLY!! got it fixed!!! i was so excited you have no idea!! but now.. this sucks we dont have any gas cuz i used it all today riding it. and so now you watch ill have to wait anther 3 months for my dad to go get gas so i can ride it again... well so much for fixing it!! cuz now its just going to be sitting in the garage tell we get gas!!!

MY NEW BABY COUSIN!!!

this is my new baby cousin right after he got out of his mommy tummy!! he is such a cutie!! they






named him cokely! ya kinda weird name! thats what i said!! ha ha he weighs 7lbs 13oz he is 21in long!! and he was born yesterday. may 17, 2009!! right on st. patricks day! coolest day ever!! i havent seen him yet. but i will soon!! i just seen pic of him! and he is really really cute!! my aunt is so lucky! k to all you that have had babys... think of this lucky and hard at the same time.. k she didnt have an epadurl or how ever you spell that because something is wrong and if she has one she will bleed to death and die so she couldnt have one of those so she was in so so much pain and she was crying and they said ok its time for her to start and i guess you could already see the babys head comeing out and she pushed once and he came out infact my mom said she didnt really push that hard and he was already coming out... how lucky! is that!! ha ha and she did just fine no problems or nothing!! she did just fine!!! but idk what that feels like cuz im too young and so ya... haha but he is so cute!!! but i was kinda mad i didnt get to go the hospital with my mom to see her have it!! but oh. well. im so excited cuz my aunt told my mom that she trusts me alot and she said i get to baby sit him alot.. i love baby sitting my cousins speacial when there little!! like me and my other little cousin who just like barely turned 1 he loves me to death and its just cuz i baby sat him like almost every day! and i still do!!! he loves me!! and i love him to!! im like is 3rd mother.. haha but he is a dawl to!!! there both very cute!!!

Here is another pic of him!! ha ha he looks grumpy in this one!! but my mom has a better one of him!! he has alot of hair! no joke!! but he is so cute!! and its like dark brown hair... such a dawl!! i cant wait to see him and hold him!! i just love babys there my fav!! i love to hold them. my whole intire family calls me a baby hogger!! ha ha cuz i always still all the little babys away!! but i cant help it! there just so dang cute!!! and i also love baby sittin them!! acutully to tell you the truth i just love baby sittin any kid even if there like 11 or 8 or like all sorts a age!! ha ha so if you need me to baby sit im always here... lol but ya... he is such a cutie!!!! i have been waitin for 9 months for this little cute kid to come out!!! oh ya and by the way just in case you didnt know he is a boy!! lol

The weather!!

I just love the new WEATHER! i hated the snow! but i love spring and summer. every time i wake up i can hear the birds chirping. and it just makes me so happy. every time i wake up! im like oh it sounds like spring to me!!! ha ha.. i love spring. the other day i acutully got to go outside and paly baseball. that was so much fun! i got to acutully go outside and run and just have fun! it felt so good. cuz i hate being stuck in the house its so boaring... but i had alot of fun! i cant wait to play football next!! that is also alot of fun!! i hope its done snowing.. cuz i love it hot! its like the right tempature now!! yesterday i got to go outside and Run and dance in my front yard... wow!! do i love spring and summer!!! sometimes i forget i can go outside. ha ha but im excited that its acutully startin to warm up! i can now take my little brothers to the park! fun fun!! im excited cuz my little brother is signed up for t-ball and i cant wait to go to all his little games and watch him play. i love watching little kids play there just so cute! and i love being there for all my brothers games. this will be a first to go to any of my brothers things cuz they havent done nothing. so this will be a first.. but my brother is really excited to play to!! and he is onely 6 years old!! how fun!!! well so glad about the WEATHER!!!!

life!

well... you know how life is always so crazy well i found that out like in 6th grade... and i hate it.... so much has happined to me this year i dont even like this year one bit... but you know nothing will ever be the same... never will... you cant do nothing about it... like i tell my friends the same thing over and over... and i just keep saying it over and over and over.... and they dont know what to say to me any more.. cuz its the same thing over and over... and they dont know how to help me. like they tell me stuff and i try to put there words into my life so it will help me but i just cant do it... it never works cuz i go right back up to being sad or something else bad happins... its so hard.... but there is nothing you can do about it.. my family trys to help me.. my friends... i mean every one.. but nothing works any more... i wish this could just get all better by now.. im so sick of feelin all this pain.. im sick of bein sad.. i know i can change it.. and i have alot of times. just like my great grandma told me... like at the christmas party right before she died.. she said amber... dont let any one bring you down.. your as pretty as the rest of the people... amber i love you... if someone is bringing you down ignore.. it walk away.. dont let them bring you down like that. your my great grandaughter... you have alot of talents your just as good as the rest of the world. i love seeing you dance. your so good at it. but just remember amber im always here for you. and always have that beatuiful smile on your face. always dont let no stupied people bring you down. your smarter then them.. if your feelin sad always remember this that i love you so much and your my sweetheart grandaughter who i can count on. your always there for me amber your always helpin me out with the little kids your just so great to me!!! i love you so much!! i love your smile and your happieness!! every time i see you or you walk through my house you always have the cutest smile on your face and that just makes me happy right away. amber you always make me way happy every time i see you!! and i love that about you. you are very speacial to me!! you never forget that. ever! just always smile even if it hurts. you can always cry but just remember always put that cute cute smile on. it will make me so happy!! i love you very much.. just like your great grandpa did... well always have the best memories forever and ever!! ill never forget my grandpa or my grandma never forget what my grandma told me... i try to be as happy as can be... i really do but sometimes i just have to break down and cry. cry cry... cuz it always helps me well at least sometimes it does... but you know life is crazy any more and i just about had it with my life.... it pretty much sucks... but im getting used to all this bad stuff happining in my life... well sorry i just had to get this out.. but i miss you grandma and grandpa!! and calvin!!!!!!

dance compition!!!

well saturday i had a dance compition at thanksgiving point... and i was so excited cuz this is my 1 compition this year and so i was way excitning and i was doin 4 dances. and so we danced them all and at the end i found out i got 3rd places on all my dances!! its so sad but my dance teacher said that this was a hard compition cuz we where against the dancers who freaken dance 7 hours every day!! now that would suck but of course there going to be that good if they dance 7 hours every day! cuz i dance 5 hours a week and if we have practice its like 7 or 10 hours a week.. and so there going to be way better then us.. but sericaly who wants to dance 7 hours every day? that would be so tiring and i would be sore every day!! and how would you get your homework done? but... i guess they love dancin like i love dancin so much and i want to become a dance teacher or a famous dancer but... still wow!!! ha ha thats all i gotta say!! well i have another dance compition coming up again in st. george in like 25 days so i hope this one goes better!!! ha ha well wish me luck!!

my crazy week!!!

o my heak!! i can never hang out!! these past few months are going to be crazy for me!!! ugh!! well compitions are coming up and its just going to be crazy!! im not ready for these 4 months ha ha.. well this week..... k so... last friday is when it got crazy k first friday night went to the school dance didnt get home tell about 11 then saturday big huge fight with my family and a sucky day... went to my friends house arianas and then went to the mall... then my dad came and picked me up from the mall and i went home and baby sat tell... like 9 or 10 then the next day.. i got up for church went to church.. then came home and baby sat.. then monday.. i had dance early in the morning and then got done with that and came home and baby sat again... and then that night went to the buck outs. and now today tuesday im baby sittin then got to do my homework.. and then tomorrow i have dance all day.. then thursday i have dance all day then friday.. i have babtisim for the dead then saturday i have dance again and then a baby shower and then sunday church and then monday dance and then my list can go on and on and on and on... but its just so crazy i dont have no time to hang out any more!! and its going to be that way for a while.... o yay!! :( well.... this is my crazy week and going to be like this for the past 4 months cuz compitions are coming up and i have one next saturday and wow!!! crazy crazy!!

my cool dream i had!!!!!

like 3 or 4 days ago i had the weirdest dream ever! dont ask my why i dreamed this but its weird and i liked it at the same time and i thought it was pretty cool... k so my dream was that i died and i was in heaven k let me tell you heaven is so freakin cool well the way i dreamed it! it was cool!!! it was like town up there and they where working and every thing and when i showed up no one saw me like there where busy and so no one like said hi to me or nothing and i was kinda freaked out but then i saw my grandma up there and talk about she was young!! and i went over there and i talk to her and i was like hey grandma! and she turned around and she was all like o hey amber!! how r u? and just talking to me like that... and i said o im doing good.. im so glad i can see you now and my grandma was like i know and then i asked her where calvin was and she said turn around and so i turned around and she goes go talk to him so i went over there and i was like omg!!! hey calvin!!!! and he was like hey.. who r u? and i was like o my heak!! dont you remember me amber? and then he liked screamed and was like omg!! yes hey amber!!! and then he gave me like a big hug!! and i was like wow!! its so good to see you again! and he was like i know i missed ya!! and i was like i know me to! and he was like ya i know i could tell... lol and i was like ya.. and then he was like pushing a barrowl and ran over some kids toe and was like ha ha i just ran over your toe and then the kid started crying and then calvin was like o did that hurt and the kid was like yes and he started crying even more.. and then he was like o im sorry then the kid just ran off and told his mom and then i asked calvin where boomer was and he was like o some where fetchen a bone and i was like okay then... lol and then i like left and this is the cool part i think of the dream!!! wowza!!! k any ways!! i went and talked to heavenly father!! but it was so werid cuz i couldnt see his face!! it was just i big shiney white blank spot!! i could see his body but not his face!! it was werid and his voice was like low and manly and he told me welcome daughter to heaven!! and i was so excited!! like way excited that i got to talk to him but then i woke up!! how sad is that?!?!? right at the good point i woke up!! geese that makes me so mad that i did that!! ha ha but i thought it was so cool... wow i cant wait to go to heavin that was just amazing!!! every one is so happy up there... there is no drama every one is just laughing and o my heak!! i just can not wait to be up there with my heavenly father again!!!